ClariiGuitarii Rants 104: On Trust

Trust is like a flowing river. It will never pass again as the same current. Once lost, you have no choice but to take the alternative route. It's hard to bring back that trust again after being pushed away like a broken toy. At first you get confused as you try to figure out how you feel, bu eventually, you'll end up losing either trust in yourself or trust for the other. Then you'll end up hurting others unintentionally. You start to blame yourself for being such a fool and allowing yourself to be treated like that. You start to hate and dwell on negative and destructive emotions, which I can say is never the right thing to do no matter what situation you are in. The more that you hate, the more that you remember. And the more that you remember the bad times, the more that it will grow stronger and try to dominate your sense of righteousness. Which means, the harder it will get for you to move on. 


We can never fully comprehend the vastness and complexity of a person's mind, and there is no way for us to figure out the exact liking and expectation of a person to another. That's the fun thing in life. That which adds zest to life is the mystery of the human's mind and soul. We do not mold that person into someone from our mental image. Instead, we try to settle the differences and try to work as a unit in order to accomplish something. That's the basic unit of trust. Both parties should compensate for the benefit of each one. An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth, as they say.


Trust has his hefty little sidekick called expectation. They go hand in hand, like a couple inseparable by their love for each other. From expectation comes the twins fear and pain. When you expect something from someone, it's like putting half of your body underground and the other half sticking out towards the realities of the world. It's like digging your own grave and actually testing if you fit in it perfectly or if it still needs further adjustments. But then, to trust someone fully is a great task. You start with the glass half-empty, and usually end up with the glass half-full. Either way, it's how you look at it which makes the difference.